Richard Brautigan, “I Was Trying to Describe You to Someone,” 1969
though the wheatfields and the clotheslines
The Goblin Tree
teenage mysticism- teenage mysticism
well the vampire kids are having a party tonight. i think i wanna change my name. i was gonna go but now it don’t feel right. well nothing’s gonna change if you stay the same. carved yr name into an apple and i ate it. got me feeling like modern art, tearing up the prettiest parts for the sake of something… has anybody seen my good old friend, that boy with the stripes on his face? last time i saw him he said he was going back home. don’t know why he’d ever go back to that place. well oh my golly and oh my god, they’re coming after me. there’s something in the mist! there’s people in the fog! they left a rabbit head on my porch last week. carved yr name into an apple and i ate it just like you took yr teeth to my heart, tearing up the prettiest parts for the sake of something… (rabbit, rabbit, white rabbit on the first) had a bad, bad dream about baby blue’s wrists. someone call the doctor. please. no i did not drown when i jumped ship, i just made peace with the bottom of the deep blue sea. yeah, and momma she’s upstairs. she’s crying crocodiles. and it’s probably because of me. i’m down here in my room making mooooondials. i think i finally found the key! carved yr name into an apple blah blah blah. well the vampire kids are having a party tonight. i think i wanna change my name.
Magan took these— I was there— we spent the morning together with our dear friend nathanael. i have missed her so so much.